I Should Just Put A Couch On The Frontlawn And Call It A Day!
Published Date: March 23rd, 2007Category: Family Life, Marsha, The Babe, The Boss, The Big Guy
Last week I shared with you my boo hoo story about my doctors visit. The one where I started a new medicine for anxiety. Effexor to be exact. I have been totally flippin’ Effexorized. OMG, I am so much calmer. No more chest pains or crazy maniac yelling fits.
Thank the sweet pink mother of pearl. M3 even looked at me tonight and said, “Mommy, I like you today, you haven’t been yelling and you let us do more fun stuff. I love you, you are a cool Mommy”. Ugh, I guess I was a little too stressed out if even the kids noticed!
The Big Guy and I took The Babe and M3 to Target this afternoon. By the way, he expressed his gripes about the trip on his site. Funny, we write about the same topics but with a different take on the situations. Well damn, I hope we are not morphing into one person, I find that so annoying. The couples that finish each others sentences and dress alike. Annoying!!
I wander in my own head sometimes, focus Kendra. Target. As I was sipping on my sodas and perusing the spring clothes, I realized I have become THAT type of Mommy. The one that lets her kids run up and down the aisle and hide in the middle of the clothing racks. The one that just doesn’t seem to frickin’ care if the kids are speaking in a playground voice or singing out of tune loud enough for the man buying hearing aid batteries to turn in my direction. Oh hell, what has come of me?
I will tell you, Effexor. It is great for my anxiety and OCD, not a real diagnosis, just a hunch, but not so great for my giving a shit. My house was totally trashed this afternoon by The Tribe. I couldn’t walk without stepping over something. The Babe emptied every piece of her wardrobe on to the flippin’ floor and I just smiled and took a picture of her very inappropriate dress up outfit. The Boss broke 2 bracelets and the beads bounced all over the very dusty and dirty wood floors.
I am in a pickle! I feel so damn good right now, but am worried I am a little too chill. I know the medicine will level out in the next few weeks, but until then, I just don’t give a big ol’ flying shiznit about a damn thing.
Where is Scooby Doo when you need him? This is a mystery. Who invaded my body and stole my crazy, maniac ass, fly of the handle, obsessive, always in control and forever neat brain?
I have decided to try to enjoy the ride. I will surrender to the sweet serotonin and norepinephrine that is being regulated in my brain. I will take that little grey and pink pill every morning with hopes of continuing my streak of happy go lucky mommying. I will stop worrying about something that has made a positive damn difference in my life. I will just let it be for a while, something I haven’t done in a long ding dang time!
I’d like to dedicate this song to all my fellow mommy bloggers:
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6 Responses to “I Should Just Put A Couch On The Frontlawn And Call It A Day!”
Did you see last night’s episode of My Name Is Earl? Your post reminded me of Joy on that show last night… she’s on “happy pills” and is totally in la-la land (I’m sure you’re not that extreme, but that is just fresh on my mind)!
I am in serious need of summa dat!
I want some!!
you can all get your very own with a little bitty Rx from your doctor, all you have to do is cry and boo hoo over little silly things and the doctor will offer you some med, just joking. seriously, when you really need it, it helps!!! it is nice to be able to turn my head off at night and sleep more than 2 hours at a clip.
I was on effexor last year, for maybe 6 months. I felt so much better on it - I was getting so overwhelmed, and the meds really calmed me. They also made me not give a shit about stuff as well! What it did do was stop my ability to have orgasms - yes world, I just said that! THAT was frustrating!
I ended up getting a mother’s helper, and I felt better, so my Doc and I decided to get off of it. HARD. VERY HARD to get off of it. It needs to be a very slow process, and boy, it took me a few months to get “right” again.
And now, with my mother’s helper having to move, I find myself looking for another person to help me here. Can I borrow a few of your happy pills?
Glad to hear that they work for you! Just be sure to keep on talking with the doc. And keep on venting here - i find that blogging has been another source of some much needed therapy! Take good care!
@everyone- thanks for being supportive of all this med talk. it is easier to talk about it on here. some of my friends here don’t get the whole mental health thing. like i said before, they shit rainbows, and as you can all see that doesn’t happen with me.
@mamalee: thanks for your words and concern. i know it is a potent med and has to be dealt with carefully, i am a RN but also a biopsychologist, first degree. not that i am an expert but i do know these meds can’t be thrown around in total disregard. also, thanks for the sex tip. The Big Guy said, “he will love me long time tonight”, haha, and see whats up in that department. i haven’t wanted anything to do with that since i started the med. i guess one trade off for another. it is what it is!