Ok, so my words were harsh last night, well a bit. I love The Big Guy, but is so damn hard when dealing with family, kids, work, everyday stresses AND his depression. Sometimes, he is where my patience stops, which isn’t always totally fair, you know?

I wish there was a magic pill that would allow all of our bad memories and past happenings disappear. But I guess as they say, everyone has skeletons in their closet, right?

I was proud of how I have been handling everything, especially the hubs, lately. The old me, years ago, would have flown off the handle, screamed and cried and said tings I would have regretted. None of us are perfect! But now with some years under my belt, 3 kids, confidence, and a sense of this being MY family, I know to let some things go, which is why you see me on here writing, and let things evolve over a bit of time.

There was a lot of TALKING done at our house last night, very late. I think I finally ate something around 11:00 or so, and we did get so much accomplished. The Big Guy knows were I am coming from, I know where he is coming from, and we both know that what we share together isn’t go anywhere. There may be a lot of shit that we have to weather, but it will damn well be together!

I do get pretty angered and pissed off at him when he CHOOSES not to take his depression medicine and he allows himself to fall down so deep that it is painful to get back up, but that is his choice, and I do the best I can dealing with it. Hence my ranting! I absolutely dispise watching the man I adore and love suffer from depression. Chemical, physical, situational, nature or nurture, whatever it may be it is very REAL and positively SUCKS!

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